Do you know how shocked I was when the truth is revealed? I cannot lie, I am still surprised now but deep down inside me, there's a voice saying and in fact keeps on repeating "I expected it. I knew it. There's a reason why I say what I said and well, it turned out to be true. Like a curse". Am I at fault? Did it happen because I said it? Indeed. I'm never wrong in this. Things happen for a reason. And sometimes there are millions of them mixed together like nobody's business.
I feel like I just came back through a time machine. It's fascinating and scary at the same time how memories could make you feel like you just rode a roller coaster. That exciting, mixed and haywire feelings lingering around you just like when you have ridden a roller coaster! Wow, this is clearly something I just have to write about though I seriously don't think I can describe it well.
I have missed you, my friend. It's just, nobody has ever known and understood me the way you do. Whenever you say something about me, it clicks and hits me hard right away. Like I know that is so me yet nobody has ever described it the way you do. Nobody has ever pinpoint it right the way you do. No matter how I wanted to just you know, brush it off and keep moving forward, I sometimes remember you. And us. How there are more happy moments than all the silly fights.
But oh well, life goes on. Never did I realize, while I was walking towards my future, there you are, stuck and confuse with everything that's happening in your life, pitifully. There you are, alone and drown in your own overthinking thoughts.
Trust me my friend, I have been there. I have experienced whatever you're experiencing right now and I know how much that sucks. I know, we are human. It doesn't matter if we are warned beforehand, we still go on living like how we wanted, expecting things would never turn out as the warnings we got. However, life never lie. Fate doesn't lie. If it's meant to be, it will definitely be. And I'm telling you, I don't regret what I said.
Honestly, I hope you will make the right decision for yourself. I hope you will stop being too stupid to realize you're being taken for granted. I hope you stop abusing yourself by letting that person controls you like a freaking puppet. All that matters at the end of the day is you and yourself. Life is not as simple and easy as we thought but it's never that hard as well. One thing for sure, there's always a rainbow after the rain, no?
I will pray for you, my friend. And just like I told you, I hope I'll be hearing good news from you sooner than I expected. Sooner or never, remember? I believe you can think well and quite maturely. I hope He guides you towards a good conclusion in the end, insyaAllah.
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