Yes you do

March 25th 2016 :)

I have this special extraordinary electricity when it comes to you. Everything about you, light me up and curve my lips a smile that I never know I could even form. I seriously have no idea, you could be this important to me, the moment we met on September (my month of birth which makes it even more special) 2014.

It was just a joke. I regarded you as my capital J. I don't really mean it and well, it's just an inside joke between me and my friend. Things changed as we keep on saying capital J, capital J, capital J when we met you. Till now.

People fall in love in mysterious ways. And I believe, maybe, a simple joke has turned into a prayer between us. Maybe it's a part of His plans, for us both. Maybe we found love right where we are. Yes, I like you. Oh no. I'm falling into you. I'm... surprisingly, falling for you.

And I chose March 25th. To tell you. To be honest with you. To confess to you. To let go all of my wishful thinking, my imaginations, my assumptions. 25th will be my favorite date ever. Because of you. For once, I feel like whatever, I'm gonna tell you and get it over with. At least, things are out open. At least, I can treat you as special as I can without you even misunderstand anything. At the very least.

I like you. A lot. Seriously.

English Tainment Day

Alhamdulillah. It's finally over. One of the many events is done by me. Hands down. Worries out. I'm not sure I did great, good or just fine. At least, it went as planned. That's more important than anything. I learned a lot throughout the completion of this event from scratch. I'm glad I decided on taking this responsibility. Alhamdulillah.

Things happened throughout the game, I don't know such thing could even happen. Patience is not easy. Thank God I have it in me, even the littlest bit. Phew!

Bottoms of all, I humbly thank and apologize to each and every participants, lecturers, advisers and committee members for any discontentment came from me. Hope you enjoyed the event yesterday. Fun was my aim in doing such event, so I hope it is achieved. Thank you, again.

Happy English Tainment Day, Bachelor of English mates! See you next events.

MS, fighting!

These few weeks are busier than ever, I have events, assignments, and even meetings nonstop, from time to time. It's crazy. But I'm still sane enough. Just lack of rest and sleep. There's so many things to cover, plan and prepare. Mocha helps me to go through this all. MS, fighting!

May Allah ease everything I'm doing currently. InsyaAllah, Amin. :)

InsyaAllah :)

This is what I love about myself. Not being a bragger but I admire my own positive thoughts. No matter how bad things may be, at the end of the day, I am able to just put them aside and smile. Who cares if it's fake or real? At least it boosts up my positive vibes. Then, from fake smiles, it will turn out to be real and sincere as ever. Isn't that cool? I mean how positive thoughts work on us, in an instant. It's fascinating for me, to be honest.

That's just how I shake everything off my mind. Even if temporarily. It works. Pretty much all the time. For now, things may have gone haywire but I will be fine. I believe I will. These things regarding feelings are so important yet it shouldn't be more important than living life. Feelings are apart of being a human but you can never sort it out on the spot. Even if you want to do so badly. Most importantly, let it all be. It is what it is. It will be what it will be. InsyaAllah.

California King Bed

It feels like more than distance between us. I know, we have completely nothing to tie us together. I shouldn't have felt this way. But what to do. I turned a total silly when I like someone. It's true. You're always at loss when you like someone first. I'm not really saying I'm at a total loss but I think I'm losing. Bit by bit. My positiveness, my logic. I tend to lose them, slowly, I think.

Is this even legit?

Let's?

And so, I got my sushi session last Tuesday. However, it turned out to be just... it. I believed that sushi is supposed to release my stress yet I don't quite feel like it is releasing. It is still there, somewhere. I guess I have to get my karaoke session, soon! Singing is the only way for me to distress, I think?

Karaoke session is needed. PRONTO!

For my one and only sissy!

10 things only sisters will understand

Sushi or karaoke session 3hrs!

I barely have deep sleep or even a normal sleep, nowadays. Am I that stressed out? Gosh, I either need sushi or karaoke session for 3 long hours. No in between. It's tiring as I have full schedule the day after but I cannot even sleep well the night before. Or am I thinking too much?

I'm in need of sushi or a karaoke session for 3 hours straight. That's just how I distress myself. Anybody's in?

Caring or pitying?

I am heartbroken. I am hurt. I am crying. It hurts so much, knowing that you are hurting the same, still. I can't help but crying my eyes out. I never want to waste my tears on you, not anymore, after all. Because it is wrong. It is pointless. It is a waste.

But today, now, I don't have the power to fight back my tears from rolling out of my eyes. It's natural. For once, I don't even have the intention of fighting my tears back. For once, I cry my heart out in this room full of people who couldn't care less of their surroundings. I'm breaking down, still. Because of you. Irony, huh?

It's been a long time. I was too busy with my life till I forgot you. Or maybe, I chose to forget you. And I thought, I have moved on. I thought I have forgotten you. I thought I'm done with you. Nonetheless the reason is, today, everything hits me hard. Do I still care about you? Deep down inside, is there still at least, a bit of remaining feelings towards you, despite everything happened?

For once, I think I should put myself into rest from being that strong girl. For once, I feel like this weak self of mine, never left. I don't know. For me, crying is weak. And I'm crying. Hence I'm weak. That's not me. At least, that's not what I have been presenting myself to the society. I am strong. I am so called, strong. At least in the eyes of others. This is not me. Crying in front of people though they didn't even care.

I really have no idea. Nothing could explain why I cry so much, just by reading? Do I still care? If I do, I must be crazy. Crazy enough to care about someone who has nothing to do with me anymore, so bad till I cry my eyes out the moment I finished reading. Every bit, every line, every word, is like a knife, trying to cut my skin or maybe take my heart out. It hurts so much.

Do I still care about you? Or am I just pitying you?

Speech Corner

The Benefits of Laughter by MS

Introduction:

When is the last time you truly laugh out loud till you feel like your stomach might burst out or your cheeks are about to fall out of place or your tears might just roll out like a fountain?

Today is the third of March in the year of 2016. Time flies as we are breathing now and in the blink of an eye, we are in the third month of the year, already!

I still remember clearly, last Tuesday evening, me and my closest friend went to disturb people inside the quiet room at the library; who are doing works simply because we have nothing to do at that moment. I know, we are never nice anyway. We met with one of our friend and till then, the whole conversation which lasted for about 4 hours were just full of laughter. That was the most recent time when I truly laugh out loud, I felt like I almost rolling on the floor to laugh even comfortably. Oh yes, that room was almost ours!

What about you? When is the last time you laugh? I mean, not ha or heheh but LOL?

Body:

My name is Mieza Shafieza Mohd Fuad and I am delighted to be here today to talk about The Benefits of Laughter.

Moving on to the facts now, boring I know but bear with me for awhile yeah. So the benefits of laughter, according to helpguide.org website (A trusted non-profit guide to mental health and well-being), are divided into three different categories which are physical health benefits, mental health benefits and social benefits.

For the first category, physical health benefits as we all know, it involves us physically. There are five benefits of laughter for our physical health. Laughter boosts immunity, lowers stress hormones, decreases pain, relaxes your muscles and prevents heart diseases.

Laughter is a powerful antidote to stress, pain and conflict. Nothing works faster or more dependably to bring your mind and body back into balance than a good laugh.

Next, laughter can also benefits you mentally. Humor lightens your burdens, inspires hopes and keeps you grounded, focused and alert.

There are also five benefits of laughter for our mental health. Laughter adds joy and zest to life, eases anxiety and fear, relieves stress, improves mood and enhances resilience.

Laughter makes you feel good. And the good feeling that you get when you laugh remains with you even after the laughter subsides. Humor helps you keep a positive, optimistic outlook through difficult situations, disappointments and loss.

Last but not the least important, laughter is socially beneficial. Laughter really is contagious. Just hearing laughter primes your brain and readies you to smile and join in the fun. The sound of roaring laughter is far more infectious than any cough, sniffle or sneeze.

There are five tops benefits of laughter in social context. Laughter strengthens relationships, attracts others to us, enhances teamwork, helps defuse conflict and promotes group bonding.

When laughter is shared, it binds people together and increases happiness and intimacy. This might sound hypocrite but who cares. Have you ever just join your friends or crowd, laugh along but truth is you don’t even know what they’re talking about or you might just don’t get their jokes? But you laugh anyway? Have you been in such situation?

Now that applies just right for social benefits. We probably never thought of the ability to laugh easily and frequently, have so much power to heal and renew ourselves right? Well it does.

Conclusion:

Now, I have talked for about 10 minutes more or less and I believe I should stop here before I babble a lot more. Trust me, I am beyond talkative and it’s getting harder since I’m quite comfortable in my position now, speaking and laughing in front of you.

Before I excuse myself, allow me to recap everything about my speech today. I talked about when was the last time I laughed hard. I talked about the benefits of laughter which falls into three categories. Can someone tell me what are they?

Right, they are physical health, mental health and also social benefits. And inside these three main categories, there are examples I have given to you guys too.

I hope everyone of you now, realize that laughing so hard is actually good. People might label us crazy, loud, weird teenagers (I’m still a teen okay so me too!) but who cares? We are living in the environment where being loud is almost rude as an individual but we still do anyway. The most important thing is, as long as we know, the benefits of laughter win over any judgmental comments. Then ignorance is a bliss!

With that, I thank you for your time and attention. Remember to laugh more often! Next time when you see me, laugh at me alright? But don’t get offensive if I just ignore you LOL!

My name is Mieza Shafieza Mohd Fuad. Assalamualaikum and have a good day ahead! Thank you. J

Current addiction

Oh, there she goes again,

Every morning it's the same

You walk on by my house

I wanna call out your name

I want to tell you how beautiful you are from where I'm standing

You got me thinking what we could be 'cause

I keep craving, craving, you don't know it but it's true

Can't get my mouth to say the words they want to say to you

This is typical of love

Can't wait anymore, I won't wait, I need to tell you how I feel when I see us together forever

In my dreams you're with me

We'll be everything I want us to be

And from there, who knows, maybe this will be the night that we kiss for the first time

Or is that just me and my imagination

We walk, we laugh, we spend our time walking by the ocean side

Our hands are gently intertwined

A feeling I just can't describe

All this time we spent alone, thinking we could not belong to something so damn beautiful

So damn beautiful

I keep craving, craving, you don't know it, but it's true

Can't get my mouth to say the words they want to say to you

This is typical of love

Can't wait anymore, I won't wait, I need to tell you how I feel when I see us together forever

In my dreams, you're with me

We'll be everything I want us to be

And from there, who knows, maybe this will be the night that we kiss for the first time

Or is that just me and my imagination

Imagination

Imagination

In my dreams, you're with me

We'll be everything I want us to be

And from there, who knows, maybe this will be the night that we kiss for the first time

Or is that just me and my imagination

I keep craving, craving, you don't know it, but it's true

Can't get my mouth to say the words they want to say to you