SHRMZB!

Eid Mubarak for me is like opening a brand new chapter in my life ; without having to dwell in past. Just sometimes occasionally remember them and that's it to it. Since people said, past taught us thousands of things that help shaped us how we are now. I believe in that strongly! Past, even your yesterday is like a puzzle that is being placed, one by one to portrait your whole life in the end. Amazing isn't it?

A new chapter in life for me is just like when you open a window and you got to see a very beautiful and fresh view of things in front of you. It's breathtaking isn't it? And it's up to you how you are going to live your life onward. Happily, gratefully, miserably? You decide.

It's kinda thrilling though because later on, you get to flashback everything and it depends on how your life turns out ; whether you will laugh, cry or even regret with the outcome. That's what I love about it. It's like a total surprise. Well turning into a new leaf really takes the whole thing into a new level. I would say, it is a stepping stone into the betterment of myself.  That's what Eid means to me.

In conjunction to that, I want to take this chance to humbly apologize for every bad things came from me. I am still learning and yeah, so far still a human being who makes a total lots of mistakes.

Salam kosong-kosong ye?

Love, MS

We're Venus and Mars

Wouldn't Change A Thing

It's like, he doesn't hear a word I say

His mind is somewhere far away

And I don't know how to get there

It's like all he wants is to chill out

She's way too serious

Makes me wanna pull all my hair out

She's always in a rush and interrupting

Like he doesn't even care

Like she doesn't even care

You, me

We're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stand mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

She's always trying to save the day

Just wanna let my music play

She's all or nothing

But my feelings never change

Why does he try to read my mind

I try to read her mind

It's not good to psychoanalyze

She tries to pick a fight to get attention

That's what all of my friends say

That's what all of my friends say

You, me

We're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stand mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

When I'm yes, she's no

When I hold on, he just lets go

We're perfectly imperfect

But I wouldn't change a thing, no

Like fire and rain
You can drive me insane
But I can't stand mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
We're like different stars
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

But I can't stand mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
We're like different stars
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

Wouldn't change a thing

I miss us

I am seriously afraid that I might fall for you again. It's tough for me. I keep on thinking of you, all the time. I miss you for God's sake! I must be crazy, I know. However, feelings are not something that we, human could control as we wish. It's just there. Come and go. Or maybe never left?

I don't know anymore. The more I think, the more I fall deep into all the memories. The more I think, the more it makes no sense to me. The more I think, the more I feel like it's impossible.

Have you ever heard of a saying goes "If you are still in contact with your ex (well in my case he's not even my so called ex), it means two things. Whether the love is still there or the love has never been there?" Right. There is that kinda saying. So my question would be, do you believe in that? Is it even possible for two people are still connected even after few years have passed?

First thing first, fine, I am pretty confident and sure that in my case, the love is still there. At least I think so for now. Obviously not because of the second reason, the love has never been there. No. A total no no. That is too mainstream to be true. Surely, the love is still there. That's it. But how far this is true? Am I just hallucinating? Is it possible? Ah, I don't know! And it's killing me!

To be honest, I think it feels right only if I come clean with you. But then again, I am seriously afraid of your response. God, this is hard. I'm scared of the fact that I might fall again for you. I'm scared I might make things complicated again for you. I'm scared this might be my one sided feeling. I'm too scared.