Autumn Leaves

Another day, another life

Passes by just like mine

It's not complicated

Another mind, another soul

Another body to grow old

It's not complicated

Do you ever wonder if the stars shine out for you?

Float down, like autumn leaves

Hush now, close your eyes before the sleep

And you're miles away

And yesterday you were here with me

Another tear, another cry

Another place for us to die

It's not complicated

Another life that's gone to waste

Another light lost from your face

It's complicated

Is it that it's over or do birds still sing for you?

Float down, like autumn leaves

Hush now, close your eyes before the sleep

And you're miles away

And yesterday you were here with me

Oh how I miss you

My symphony played a song that carried you out

Oh how I miss you

And I, I miss you and I wish you'd stay

Do you ever wonder if the stars shine out for you?

Float down, like autumn leaves

Hush now, close your eyes before the sleep

And you're miles away

And yesterday you were here with me

Touch down

Like a seven four seven

Stay out and we'll live forever now

Interesting things about me

Okay. Now I know how hard is this for me. To right away answer what are interesting things about myself. I seriously have no idea. Maybe I am not that interesting to be with? Or maybe I'm just that lazy to think what are they? Either way, I think other than interesting, I could say, I am just... complicated? Yeah. Complicated.

I am a picky eater. I don't eat chicken, meat, fish, vegetables, that much. I'm not that into fruits. I don't fancy chocolates like other girls do. But these are things I only eat when I feel like it. There are times when I feel like I wanna eat chocolate but that's really rare. Same with others. I prefer wings rather than drumsticks or thighs. I eat catfish only. I love cabbage, salad, and tomato. I eat banana, apple, grapes, and watermelon. But like I said, only when I feel like I wanna eat them. Only. I hate everything related to soy. I don't even like nuts. I hate starfruit so very much. I'm not into sour things. Aha, headache already? I know right. I wanna ask the same question to myself as well. What do I eat then every single day? LOL

I am fussy. Pretty much in everything. In choosing, in deciding, in selecting, everything. I don't know, I'm not into perfection but I expect things that I do, will turned out to be at least, complete. Just like how I wanted it to be. Not more or less than that. My appearance, it needs to always be, me. God knows how hard it is for me to decide what should I wear everyday. For me, my image and my confidence level cannot live without each other. My work, it needs to always be, okay I don't know what to call this, em different than others? Yeah that's it. I don't want something similar or anything near others work, I want out of the box kinda work. God I sound so bad. Sorry if you happen to be my group mate though. I am no nice. I am hard to deal with. I am hard to please. Early warning! My friends, I choose them. Oh trust me, I have a very high preference when it comes to friends. Thanks to the past, I find it better to choose people around me wisely so that I won't be that disappointed later on because I loved them too much to let them go.

Now look. Are these even interesting for you? It's boring for me! Seriously I'm that kinda girl who has a difficulty in answering right away, every single thing about herself. But one thing I could promise you, that you will slowly know me, another side of me, a better side of me, once you get yourself closer. These past years, I've became someone better from my old self. I'm perfectly sure I have moved on and will continue moving on.

Good luck to you

Have you ever saw someone and straight away feel, that someone is going to ruin your life if you let them? If and only if you get involved yourself with that someone. Strangely I did. For certain people. I guess this happened since I've been exposed in this new environment at my age. It's freaking me out for that fact that I can be such a scanner inside out of that someone without even know her. Still, that is totally something that I couldn't stop from happening, can I?

That's exactly how I feel about her. I've told you. Clearly. Alright. Maybe you have your own reasons to be an idiot. I understand. Totally. I don't mind. Not anymore. At least, after I gave you warnings. I even gave you hints, signs, whatever you might call it. After all, I've done everything that I know, I won't regret later. It's your choice. I respect that. I'm trying not to care anymore now. No. I already stop caring. That's the best for us both. For you perhaps.

If you choose her instead of being with me, after I've explained why you shouldn't do so, and even after you've known her that up close, I'm fine. Instead I'll be praying for you, not to be that person you said you never will. Though you've already be. I will be here. Observing how you will change slowly, bit by bit, because of her. Trust me, you will. I will be here. Wishing you best of luck in life. Without me by your side.

Hey self, good job!

When all of my classmates announced their awesome results in the group, that's the moment when I feel so nervous. More nervous than performing on stage. Seriously. I have this nervousness when it comes to results. I know it's something I could never change any more, that's why. Though I have put my 100% for assignments, group works and finals, still. I'm nervous to see the results of my hard works. I'm afraid that it might disappoint myself. I'm afraid that I might not be the same level as my classmates. Ah, I totally have a war in my mind about it.

Anyway, all the praises to Allah. I scored brilliantly for this semester. A surprise I must say because I have that one subject which I thought I will fail. Alhamdulillah, I'm just glad and thankful that I'm able to always make both of you, proud of me. InsyaAllah, I'll work harder next semester for a better results and a wider smiles on both of you guys' faces. Thank you for everything Mama, Abah.

Hey classmates! Congratulations. See you guys at the award ceremony yeah? Totally proud of the fact that most of us, Bachelor of English, dominates the title. Yay! Ehem, and to you. Congratulations on getting 4flat. I'm happy for you. And remember, I lg 0.12 je nak beat you. Haha! *tak puas hati at the same time brsyukur* eh? Kbye!