It just hurts, that's all

I've been used to this. People walked away from me, whether or not I'm at fault. Since high school, until recently. As time passed by, I keep on reflecting myself. Not even once, I stop thinking and asking myself about it. Yes. Five years straight.

Do they have other reasons why they left, that I don't even know about? It hurts me even more, since I have no idea exactly why they left. Shouldn't you guys at least, let me know, what actually went wrong at the very first place? Because there might be misunderstandings.

No. I'm not trying to explain myself even if you tell me. I know, explaining things aren't helpful at all to you guys because it seems just excuses. I know, there's always something wrong with me, that made you guys left. That's why, isn't it best, if you guys tell me and give me chance to at least get rid of my flaws that had gave you problems instead of just leaving?

High school friends. I missed you guys. Though we were all immature girls back then, I still wonder, why must we broke apart? Foundation dorm mates and classmates, how are you guys doing? And you. Are you happy, without a useless friend like me?

In every cloud, there is a silver lining

When I'm surrounded by new people, I tend to feel like, I am a brand new person. For me, it's a good thing. When I'm with them, I feel like, every single day, I need to change at least one of my bad behavior and be a better person. Seriously. I love being in this new environment, right now. It makes me feel, as if I am obliged to keep on changing and most importantly, let my old self go.

It's undoubtedly true, things happen for a reason. Well, reasons I guess. All the things that happened in my life before, either goods or bad, I'm thankful for that. Because obviously, without them, I wouldn't be here, experiencing all these awesome things going on, get to know a bunch of real good people, appreciating the littlest things, and of course, I got to be myself. My better self.

Thank you. For each and everyone who once, befriends with this immature, lack of common sense, inconsiderate, too bold, selfish, rude, overconfident self. Sincerely, I thank you guys from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for being patient with this girl. Thank you for coping and never stops advising this self, though she never listens because she thinks she's doing good. Thank you so much. You guys are the one who give me this chance, to be where I am now. 진심으로 감사합니다.

Holidays not so holidays

End of holidays. It was okay, since I spent most of my holidays working, so yeah. But apart from that, I love the fact that I got to spend my quality time with my family and friends. Just that fact.

I must say, throughout my working experience at the age of 22, I got to know quite a lot of types of people. If you think you are pretty enough, well think again. Pretty is quite subjective you know. Be it physically or spiritually. That's the solid reason why, they must be equally the same.

But screw you! Who has it nowadays? I mean who has their physically and spiritually balanced? Like come on. People are not the same anymore, at least in this generation I'm talking about. That is why, I realized that I cannot aspect my own generation to be pretty inside out. Because to be honest, I am so not a pretty person myself, inside out. Simple.