I've learned the greatest lessons from my worst mistakes

Something happened and it did change my life. For once, I really felt like I'm dead for, maybe, hmm 15 minutes? I don't know but sort of. That's the first thing came from my head. "I'm a dead meat".

First thing to do, stop the car. Where ever it is doesn't matter, as long as I pull off the car. Or else perhaps something bad might happen which will make me even more regret than how I am already. And after I off the engine, I took a very long deep breath by myself. Again. Again. And again. Up till I feel relax and calm enough, or maybe sane enough? Suits yourself. That's the perfect thing to do first thing first after everything. By then, my head started to play a movie of mine about the past. A flashback on how dumb I was. I felt like I'm slowly dying by the fact that, those were actually my past. Of course the decisions and mistakes I've done. Screw me. With all of these rewind session going inside my head, I decided to drive back. Slowly started the engine and drive away.

Arrived. Somehow the only thing I could think of is pray. And so I rushed myself as soon as I got home. To pray. Lord's power, I became much calmer, alhamdulillah. Whatever results will become, it's all in His hand. I'm still praying and will always be, insyaAllah.

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