Dear you,

I was contemplating a lot whether I should tell you these things or just bottle it inside. But you know what? I'm just gonna stay honest as I have always been with you from the first day we knew each other till the very end. Which means, I just will tell you everything I'm feeling lately because I think even if I keep it to myself, for what? I don't wanna regret anything so yeah, I'm telling you these. It's not for you to do something about it. It's just for the sake of I want you to know. And for the sake of expressing myself to you, that's all.

I know for a fact that you knew I like you. We both have even agreed that we will just leave it up to Him. Kalau ada jodoh, ada la kan. InsyaAllah. And yeah, we shouldn't rush things and stuffs. I totally get it and I agree. It's just I don't know why, I really want you to know that I still am liking you. I told you, If I started liking someone, I will like him for such a long time. I mean it. No matter how rare we meet or contact each other, that would never lessen or fade my feelings towards you. Not that easy though because I don't like someone that easily. In fact, do you know that the feelings even growing, each day. Pelik kan? You on the other hand might forgot mostly all the things we have been through together or forgot everything about me but here I am, missing you like crazy. Literally. Haha!

I think I've gone crazy. For real.

Good night/morning?

I was supposed to be in a deep sleep right now actually but I'm totally wide awake as you can see, I mean read. I cannot seem to fall asleep and that is so annoying and weird at the same time. Legend says when you cannot sleep at night, that means you are in someone's dream.

Alright, fine, this does sound like a total myth but there's nothing wrong to make use of it anyway right? Ah, dream on, Mieza. Gosh why is it so hard for me to sleep? I need to be ready before 8pm and to think that it's going to be my working day, I should be resting now, shouldn't I?

I know, I know. Look, my mind and body knows it all but seems like it's completely useless. I'm freaking tired and all but here I am, blogging instead of sleeping. Sometimes I surprise myself and no one could ever understand why. Not that I asked for it though.

Uhoh, I think I'm talking crap right now. I meant blogging crap. I have no choice other than keep on trying to sleep then. Toodles guys!

Fake people still surprise me, loyal people amazed me

It's not even a question anymore, I know. But this fact wonders me a lot to be honest. I just am so impressed on how can people be so fake. How can people act too well? How can these people even exist? It's really impressive, like really, no kidding, don't you think?

People scare me.

Sometimes, no matter how scared I am towards cockroaches (totally takde kena mengena but to show how irrelevant this comparison is), people are scarier. Though these two are totally on different levels of course. I think if people ask me what scares you the most? My answer would definitely be; people. That's first. Then only cockroaches. Funny right? That's how scary people are to me.

People are unexpectedly unbelievable.

I get overly surprised whenever I heard all the impossible stuffs people can do and are doing just to live. It's normal, I know. Yet I get so surprised like how does that even make sense? Do you really have to do that? Motif dia apa, motif dia? Are you kidding me? This is not a camera trick right? These questions, these reactions are what I automatically give afterwards.

People understand themselves.

I'm not degrading anyone and just think highly of myself. It's nothing got to do with myself. I'm not a barbie doll and that's a freaking fact no one, not my parents, family or even myself can deny. This is actually for specific people. If they are affected by this, terasa ke apa ke kan, they surely know who they are. I have one thing to say to you.

"Please, get a life. You can do better. I wish you the best if you feel like changing."