I'm not even joking and I never will for this matter, ever. I was so very totally scared that my pointer this time would drop the moment I checked my results which only provided with grades this time. I'm disappointed with most of my results actually. Three of my major subjects, were a disappointment and I totally don't expect such results. And I was in a total em well disbelief? Nah, disappointment sounds better.
Hence, it was too scary and nerve-wrecking for me, I don't know why! Call me over-dramatic or ungrateful I don't really care. I have my targets too, you know. And somehow it doesn't reach this time. I don't know my pointer and truth to be told, that is all I care about. I don't care about the grades, I care about my pointer as I try my hardest to either maintain or increase them each semester. And heck, let me tell you one obvious statement. It's not easy. It's never easy. Ever.
But alhamdulillah. My pointer doesn't drop! In fact it increases, far from what I assumed. That feeling, that lega gila bapak feeling, that tingling feeling you have in your whole body right when you knew oh my God, priceless man! Alhamdulillah for this, again, without fail. I'm beyond grateful. Alhamdulillah, ya Allah. Leganyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
